I've thought about it. A lot. I mean almost daily for nearly a year. I have really enjoyed my time here, but I feel now is the time to stop, since I just can't seem to start again.
Here are a few things that have gone into my decision making:
My family won't even read my blog. It's true. "I don't click on links" was one half hearted excuse. Once when I have attempted to share a recipe and mentioned it's also on my blog I have been actually scoffed at. I know its because they have some sort of weird opinion about what a blog is, but I would assume they don't have a weird opinion about what I am. Evidently they do.
A good friend of mine actually tried to interest me in her monthly meal planning endeavors. I thought I was being "punked". I wanted to say, "Don't you remember I have been meal planning since before we started being close friends?"
Even my husband stopped reading my blog. Yep. I can't even keep him interested and he's the one eating the food.
My kids don't eat the meals I interrupt my work to prepare and pack for them before heading out to some event, like baseball games or practice. My son last night ate pistachios and an ice cream sandwich for dinner. His Thai Zoodle bowl sits in the cooler untouched.
I can't honestly say I have the same zest I once had for writing about meal planning. I use to do research and share about why eating well is important. Now I'm literally a big fat hypocrite. My weight is out of control, I don't sleep restfully and I look like hammered shit 99% of the time. We still eat healthy meals, that hasn't changed. But, it seems my body has. I am not projecting the healthy lifestyle portrait I feel the writer of this blog should have.
I have stopped prioritizing writing. You are as busy as you allow yourself to be. I understand that. The pressures of life have made me feel that my new fabulous job should get all my creative inspirations and that I need to use my allotted 24 hours more wisely.
So, here is where I say goodbye.